2nd

I just woke up from a nap. I ve been having dreams every single time i fall asleep for more than a month and it's been exhauting. I hate dreaming, it feels like my mind is never at rest. I only dream when im stressed, but isnt everything getting a bit better now? Why still -_-

I dreamed of you this time. it was so unexpected that i was a bit shocked when i woke up.. This was the 2nd time i ve seen you in 4 years. I thought i would cry :(
You were wearing the same light blue shirt, black pants, curly messy hair and pale skin c: we shared my earphones to watch a tvb drama on my ipod HAHA so weird. We were just lying there next to each other C:
Then i woke up.

I can see the orange sky outside the window from my bed. Summer's almost over.

You miss me dont you C: i miss you too C: i miss you everyday. i ll see you very soon C:

Landon's voice is deep, warm and damn sexy.

C:

"Eventually all things fall into place. Until then, laugh at the confusion, live for the moments, and know everything happens for a reason."
— Albert Schweitzer

My omma is strangely hyper tonight. She jumped on me, she talked to me like she was talking to a puppy, she sang and danced along to dancing queen, she even slapped my butt...
"omma why -_- dont do that i do not like it"
Her:"but i did that when you were born too"
"do i look like im a newborn -______-"

Now she s enjoying her korean drama..

My omma is a kid at heart! She's crazy, but adorable!

That feeling when you know you ve been taken for granted,
that you have always been an option,
that they were only with you because they had no one else,
that youre good enough till they find someone better,
that when they realize they have hurt you, they would feel bad for a second and forget it right when sth else catches their attention,
and that the happiness you once thought you had was from a lie.

Then you look at them and deep down inside you know a part of you still wishes them happiness.
They still mean something, they re just not worth it anymore.

You said you hate to see me hurt. So all those times that you hurt me, did you close your eyes

a walk to remember

Omma moved my bed so from now on i ll be sleeping facing my mirror on the wall. one of the things i dislike the most: sleeping near a mirror.. Imagine seeing your reflection in a dark room at night TT_____TT just earlier i was txting on my phone and looked over to my right, my phone light reflected in the mirror, showing parts of my face egrjrhfksjdfsjkdrfdd it was creepy af... Not to mention that i watched Insidious earlier TT______TT....someone saves me..............

I just finished reading the book. It was great, i think i like the book a bit more than the movie. I didnt know it was a lot different from the movie tho. But then i looked at my phone and its 3:30... I swore to myself i would go to sleep at 11 every night -_-. Failed. This is so bad..

I used to wonder why the author chose that tittle. When Jamie was walking down the aisle towards Landon on their wedding day, she had to stop half way to catch a breath bc of her sickness.
"It was, i remembered thinking, the most difficult walk anyone ever had to make. In every way, a walk to remember." - Landon.

ugh

i love summer, but my weakness is the heat. it hit 92 F these 2 days. it's not really that hot compared to others states which i heard that the temperature could go up to 115 or sth (God bless them T_T),  but this is still way too hot for me.
lightheaded, dehydrated, dizzy, migraine headache, heat stroke ..etc .. im like.. well-cooked by the heat
dear lord -_-

-> my fav version of Hallelujah

5:19

"every story has an ending. but in life every ending is a new beginning" - Ray

My manager's leaving for another job at the end of this month.
Im happy for her and all... but it feels kinda suck not seeing her around. Another coworker of mine already left for another job too, which is good for her but i'll miss working with them.
I ve been working there for 2 years and i guess my job means a bit more than just a ws job to me. She kind of pulled me out of my shell, or sth like that. I actually talked to people beside my cirlce of friends, which i never did in hs.. I wasnt much of a talker, im still not, it's not really a problem.. but things are different now.

I hate getting attrached to pp easily, when theyre gone i feel kinda lost. Its gonna be so much different when she s not here anymore.
When she posted her resignment announcement, it just hit me: "oh yeah.. For awhile i forgot every story has an ending."
I dont know if im making a big deal out of this..probably.. But still, i admit it does matters to me.
Next fall term is my 3rd year in college, i ll probably stay in school for 5 years cuz im slow -_- but i still dont know where im going and what the heck im gonna do with my life.

Oh well :) babo hang in there.
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im so overwhelmed.

"For you it's separation, to me it's waiting"-JJ

:'(

I had the worst day. Im at my limit. Why do things never go right for once? Cant pp just leave me alone:/ Im just a fucked up girl who's trying to find her own peace of mind. It's exhauting n suffocating.

At least i got to visit my grandparents. i love my baby cousins; as soon as i opened the door, they all came running towards me. *aw* Dawn was cute as always and baby Grace finally talked to me (after half an hour letting her bite my phone...) All she can say is "bye", "ah" and "uh oh" haha. but then omma turned that 30 mins visit to 3 hour visit... All my plans for tonight were gone. -_-

no one is able to go to haiwaii with me... Sigh.

Finished moving all my dramas n movies into the external harddrive. Is now enjoying the great life of watching HQ dramas on big screen tv. Hallelujah!

Besides from that, gnight world, hope i can at least get a good sleep tonight..

I just realized that if you lie down outside at night, the sky will actually seem like a LOT closer >:D<, esp when there r clouds.
But the electric lights were so bright, which made it hard to see many stars :C I saw an airplane tho..... this post can't get any more random.. *_*

Hope i can see a meteor shower one day.

*i didnt realize its already august. my favorite month:]

just saying

Whats with the ex thing "im here if you ever need me"
Where the hell were you when we were together and i needed you? :|