To those nights.

"To those thoughts, the ones that you, when you are drunk, keep to yourself, or within your car, or within your texts."

Sometimes i really think i may end up alone and die alone.

Im so used to being alone to the point i have doubted if i deserve to be with anyone. 

But lately things start to make sense a tiny bit. I met someone who proved me that im capable to love, that i can reach out to touch someone's heart, and maybe, if im lucky, their souls. The people i ve met, the lessons i ve learned... they all start to fall into places, very, very slowly...

There are definitely greater things waiting ahead.

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Lately i ve gotten very tired of the dark cloud in my head. I let my feeling get ahead of me. Its been a long long war. 

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In the end, its family i run back to. What am i gonna do if... 

Ignorance is bliss?

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"How do you let go of something so thorougy woven through your soul?"

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"Treat the world as if nothing is in your possession." -

Eventually, I become more and more afraid of losing what's never been mine...
I wish I could have done sth about it already...
Everyday I tell myself I'm going to see the end of it one day...
Everyday I learn to let go...