dont give up on love :)
i remember the first time i had my heart broken, i was at lost and did not know what to do. and i wondered how many times this would happen again in life. it took 4 years and a half to heal
later on..
the second time took 1 year and 9 months
the third time took 8 months
all kinds of worries, confusing thoughts, fucking up, waiting, expectation, disappointment, being led on, false hopes, mixed signals, GAMES, lies and truth.. i sometimes tried so hard to laugh, to appreciate all the happy little things in life, just to lie in bed at night and realize i was still in the same position i was trying to escape from. i missed those times when i could fall asleep without worrying about anything.
everytime when i thought i could finally get a break between all the heartbreaks, another unexpected guy came around and messed my life up again. i'm the youngest and the least experienced among my friends, but sometimes it's sad how people are too quick to judge. they look at your life and assume you have nothing to worry about. a smile can hide so much. everyone is fighting their own wars.
im still at lost. but looking back on those years, what really matters isn't how many times you 've had your heart broken, but how many times you overcame it.
it takes times.. and im willing to wait.
i guess everyone needs different amount of times. in my case, at some points i felt like it could take forever. and soon enough, before i even realized it, it was over and someone else came then we repeat the cycle again. how ironic.
but if there is anything that i learned, dont give up on love :) the beginning is usually scary and the ending is usually sad, so make whatever in between worth remembering. dont take someone for granted. let go. forgive yourself. give before you take. treat the person the way you want your daughter or son to be treated by their future partners. try before you give up. actions speak louder than words. assumption is the root of all problems. have some respect.
love yourself.
know where you stand, dont lose yourself on the process of chasing something.
trust in God's timing.
dont give up on love :)
