- went to my hs friend's wedding today. It was beautfiful. *tears*

- my 3tb external harddrive arrived yesterday. My computer is now saved! Thanks God!

- i hate the fact that my health is so poor. Migraine and neck pain r killing me. I start to worry that i may have some kind of cerebellar tumors/disorders or gastric cancer or whatever T_T

- rent dae jang geum from the lib amd been watching it again. such great drama :D

- its getting so hot in my house. i may as well just sit in the bathtub till summer s over.

some things in life are better left unsaid

tammie said i changed a lot, so did i.
she thinks im much more quiet now. i think she still talks a lot and complains a lot more Haha.
we started telling each other about what happened in the past 4 years that made us who we are right now. i realized i didnt remember anything but tough times, mean people, hurtful words.. that's not so true, is it? i did have some good memories somewhere.
i tore up.
i knew it was gonna be hard and it was really hard growing up.
there were times when i felt like i was living in a world that i didnt belong to; there was another world that i knew i was no longer a part of.

i admit, things are a lot better now:) though i think im currently in this long and confusing process of figuring out who i am and what i want to do in life.

*i just took a five minute break to kill one mother effing spider in the ceiling ++___++ i dont think i can sleep tonight T____T

but yea, shitlife happens. i like the way it is now :) a lot less troublesome.

but she fell asleep while i was talking so i ended up here writing this blog. the firework was specially prettier tonight because of ME!!! no i wish... i guess it's saturday so they decided to shoot more firework. my fav is the one that sparkles; they look like golden babystars falling down from the sky:D

we drove around downtown san diego this morning and im loving this city.
im still coughing my lungs out and my nose is still stuffed and i've been blowing my nose so many times that i have reindeer nose now. ugh.

off to bed and happy tumbling now :D g'night world~~

i finally got to see harry potter today. i bawled my eyes out esp @Snape's parts T_T when he said harry had lily's eyes and when his patronus appeared as a doe :'(
but the ticket was so goddamn expensive, $14, so we stayed to watch Friends With Benefits :p and it turned out much better than i expected. it was hilarious n sweet<3 but the part when Jamie was hiding in the box and listening to all the bad stuffs Dylan said about her got me all emotional... probably because i knew how she felt
it was a happy ending tho :) love the movie n_______n

i went to see the firework again haha tammie's aunt must have found me weird.

we drove around USD on our way home. i swear their campus and buildings are reallyyyy pretty!! like a super high-class castle! it's up on the hill so we could see the whole city lights at night, like rocky butte :D i miss rocky butte.

firework!!!!!

@9:50 every night at seaworld :DDDDD we ve been going to the bay the last 2 days to see firrworks
Man if i lived here, i would probably go everynight hohoho

So I woke up yesterday morning with a fever-_-. Thought my sore throat was just a common cold, turned out its sinus infection. Its a lil bit better now tho.

I miss portland already.

i dont understand people at times

i dont usually say this, therefore when i tell someone i ll be there for you if you need me, i mean it. and i still remember those few people whom i ve said that line to, even if we slowly drift away, or we stop talking, or they forget.

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i have a friend who once talked bad about me behind my back and looked down on me.
now we're not close anymore, but recently he has been hanging around and and acting friendly like he cares. i wonder what advantage he thinks he can take of me cause i cant see any. i dont understand people at times. why wasting your time with someone you dont value for no reason ..?

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im currently in bed in a dark room and i need to use the bathroom but light switch why you have to be all the way across the room...
there's a mirror opposite to the bed. i've read an article about ghost stories and it said one of the good ways to see ghost is to brush your hair in front of the mirror at 12:00 am with the light off. muahaha.
tammie knocked out awhile ago lol we re in san diego btw. today was the day i actually met her again after 4 years. im glad to see her but somehow sth doesnt feel right...

my flight was only 2 hours an a half compared to her 18 hour flight. insane.
it could have been better if i could get a window seat. the clouds were awesome. it's not like you can be above the clouds everyday :DDDD
for a moment it was kinda sad thinking that the last time i was on a plane, i was leaving home :(
oh well :)
the water here tastes so weird..
my throaat been hurting since morning and it got really worse now. fml.

alright goodnight world :D

sunset C:

the whole sky turned orange-ish, so pretty :D

i ended up watching HP 6 out of boredom. the part where professor Dumbledore was lying dead on the school yard and professor McGonagall raised her wand to light up the gray sky then everyone else did the same thing :'(((((

still,-_-
i havent found any free time to see HP 7 part 2. this is unacceptable &%^@&$%^)&$%^)$@#%^@$&(

rainy sunday morning C:

snuggled up in my warm and comfy double goi cuon C: i like the sound of rain against my window, the sound of birds tweeting, the smell of wet grass/soil and moist air. felt so fresh n___n

but i had a very very inappropriate dream -_- wtf.
i've been having bad dreams a lot, like every night for more than a week :[ with the same pp in my dream, same concept, just different scenery >_< oh god! inception!!!

lately i've enjoyed spending more time on my own. it doesnt feel lonely at all, instead it feels good concentrating on what/whom that actually matters. pp's craps and fakeness started to make me bored.

woke up for no reason and went out to the back yard.
the smell of early morning C:

what i ve learned from watching tons of criminal tv show

dont live in a bigass house, you ll probably get killed :|

What goes around comes around bitch.

Best things bout the beach trip:
-the ocean sound
-fireworks, i freakin love fireworks!! Wish we had enough time to play with sparklers.
-the night sky on our way back. I ve never seen a sky with that many stars and they were all so clear and bright and had dif. shapes! The prettiest sky i ve ever seen. Ughhh i needa go camping so i can just lie under the stars at night!!


Bad news:im sick -_- blame it on the heat..
Dont feel like working on saturday at all..

love this song since i was little. im nowhere near being a good catholic, but there's a lot of good feelings in this music there! the movie is as old as i am geez haha.