autumn sky is the prettiest❤

it's been a very interesting week!
-criminal minds new season 7 was out last week!! im happy as a clam!!!! new dexter is out tooooo!!!! i still have so many episodes to catch up with, as well as drama. i havent properly watched a korean drama since last year.. been watch korean variety shows instead LOL RUNNING MAN and 1N2D FTW
-LUAN LEGACY! xD
-school is okay, could have been better. im still not used to not having the old group of friends around. we had so much fun together before and now we all drifted apart thank to some stupid conflict. this really upset me for awhile. whatever.
-my profs are all great, esp my bio prof! im satisfied with all my classes except the bio lab, 6 to 9pm is pretty insane hour to do lab. i dislike lab in general. they re all too long.
outside of classrooms i feel like a loner.
i've been coming to the vsa office to find some company :( i started to like the place a lot lol it's a cozy happy office :D
-my foot is a lot better now, even tho it still looks ugly!
-im glad the weather of this week has been still autumn-ish. today was gorgeous, chilly but sunny! im waiting for all the leaves to turn red, it ll be so pretty.

-it's midnight now and im starving... class at 9 tmr T_T Goodnight world! Bye September❤

>>> view from 2nd floor shattuck hall :) 

back to school!

life s too short to wake up with worries and regrets, make each day count!

:(

- omma's hurting my mind with her depressing music -_-
- my broken toenail is a real pain in the butt. I put to much energy on protecting n preventing it from getting more fcked up. I ve been taking pain relieve pill which made me drowsy, sleepy and tired as heck. School starts in 1 day and i ll have to walk all around the bigass campus to get into any avaiable lab. Its so hard to walk now. Why did this happen to me ??? What kind of BAD luck is this ??? Why me why now why why why??? These days i been having a strong passion to blame it on anyone so i can hate that person to death for hurting my toe n making my life miserable. But really i couldnt blame anyone but my clumsy self. Now i hate myself. Great.
Basically, what happened was that we were playing this hide and game in the dark. It was all fun till i ran into a big rock, kicked it with all my strength, fell and rolled on the rough ground -_- now i have like 7 bandaids on my legs. I saw blood in my nasty toe and lost my sense -_- i didnt even have a clear idea of what happened after that and how i got home... I got my memory back the next day tho.. So i went home trying to clean my foot. After looking at my toe for few minutes, i knocked the fck out in the bathtub -_____________- geezus. My bro saw me and woke me up few mins after. Why did i play hide and seek in the dark? Why didnt i wear sneakers? Why was there a bigass rock on my way ????? WHYYYYYY
Such painful, dramatic, heartbreaking story TTT________TTT

- kay im done venting. Im just mad so i need to let it out. This is nothing compared to before :p i should be thankful i didnt break any bone :D
- no,i lied. I hate rock i hate rock i hate rock x[

- we went crawfish catching today. It was nice being in beautiful nature before a stressful school year starts; bright blue sky, white clouds, green trees, the sound of the river, the moist in the wind n____n
- but i feel sick now :(
- been crazily craving for japchae, beef udon and boba
- lots of things happened this week; friends, work, family, school, myself... Im a bit overwhelming.

K goodnight world :]

"i said fuck that new girl that's been in your bed, and when youre in her i know im in your head" -

it's like youre rubbing salt on my cuts.

brace myself for the goodbye :) cause that's all i've ever known.

When i moved to america, i left my sick grandma n my dog behind. There's a hole in me ever since. It haunted me. I have a fear of saying goodbye, fear of drifting away from someone or something.

Is this what everyone always do? Moving on?
What should i do if i want some of them to stay?

I got a DORAEMON PJ!!!!!!!! My childhood is now complete lol! It was originally my friend's pj but he sounded like he would never ever wear it (sad -_- how can someone resist doraenon... jk haha). the other day he was like "you should of take it" so TADAAAA~~~ n_______n.

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Jayesslee<3
this cover has a special meaning :)

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the day after.

He asked me how long it usually takes me to move on. He said he still somehow has feeling for the girl he dated years ago. I think its a good thing that we still remember the feeling we once had with someone. Afterall, there were good memories. Idk.. I told him for me moving on doesnt always mean that you dont feel that way anymore. It simply means that you refuse to let hurtful memories in the past stop you from living the present. Maybe the feeling fades, or maybe it still hurts, maybe it'll hurt for awhile, but life goes on. Maybe after a period of time keeping myself busy with life, i pause and look back to realize that even though the person i need was no longer there, my life goes on. And in that short moment, i feel at peace again. Idk if i give up easily or im just quick to accept the situation, the kind of situation that, no matter what i do, will never change.
He thought the same way.

Being home alone sometimes reminds me that its been awhile since she left.
I look around the quiet house and it just hit me :"oh right..she s not here anymore."
I always feel like she s still around, even though i just cant really see her. it feels strange n empty everytime. Its like she was just here yesterday, like after 4 years she s still gone on her long term vacation.
For a long time, i went to bed thinking she would be home again soon, and that i would hear her footstep when i woke up the day after.

UKISS - NEVERLAND

loveee their choreography!!

it's been awhile since i found a mainstream kpop song that i actually like. they all sound pretty much the same to me lol fast beat, loud bass, repeated, autotune.. and female singers focus way more on showing off their bodies instead of singing, at times i thought they were wearing monokini in their MV lol. hmm it's just my opinion anyway :p
so many girlbands n boybands debuted. after snsd i cant really remember any names of other group's members.. but they all have awesomeeeee hair haha!!!
i kinda miss shinhwa/dbsk era bla.bla.

- drunk pp and their honesty... sigh*
- caffein and alcohol together is a bad idea -_- theyre fighting each other and my tummy is like a battle ground
- almond milk tea boba is pretty good!
- i wanted to chop my hair off but i didnt dare to
- late night phone calls c:
- everything in life happens with a purpose, no pain no gain
- guy friends r pretty awesome. they re like just a call away
- pp who r unsure of their feeling and mess with others' feeling :|
- i want the 52" inches bear from costco so bad
- got new white case n anti glare screen protector for my baby
- flashbacks
- one day i ll see the Northern Lights, a meteor shower and go to a night sky lantern festival in china :D
- dont have to tell me everything.. just dont lie to me
- i can see cassiopeia constellation from my house c:
- xmassssssss is comingggggg!!!
- im so not ready for new school year
- why do you have so much time to think of different ways to make me feel low of myself O_O? im just different from you. Call me weird or anything you want. My weirdness doesnt harm anyone. There r always someone who s more attractive, more intelligent and more fun to talk to, the only thing i can be is me :p your ignorant opinion isnt gonna change who i am. So feel free to have a seat with the rest of the crazy people who r waiting in line for me to give a fuck.
- im ready for some autumn weather :D
- im hungry ugh
- i miss working with the old crew..Oh well :) at least we had some good memories to remember
- kevin and his dad <3 LOL
- i wish i have a bigger closet..
- this post is getting unnecessarily long...
- spicy egg ramen sounds so good right now
- "im size 6. Sometimes i can wear a 5 or a 7, but i can wear neither 10 or 4, no matter how pretty them shoes are and how much i wanna buy them. Somestime i bought them anyway just to see my feet all swollen after a day. You get the idea. Not everything fits well in my life no matter how much i try to, whether its family, friendship, relationship, carreers..whatever. So if you know from the beginning that it s not gonna fit you then leave it. Why putting up with the pain? Keep looking you ll find your perfect pairs. The key is to accept, to stop comparing and stop looking for the old ones in the new ones" - drunk people talk.
- idk if you remember, but i cared when no one else did.
- i finally met Bear again tonight and he looked adorableeeeee! He grows so fast.
- been watchin Smile You, such great drama:)

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im so addicted to this version! *replay*replay*replay*

Bye august:D youre my fav month! See u next year!

Helloooo september:D last month of summer, please slow down.

Bad news is that August ended with a massive hangover for a whole freakin day.. I usually stop at "tipsy". Why didnt i stop myself this time :| and all my coworkers n manager were there... Pertect timing to make a fool out of myself :/ and after i threw myself in bed, i started calling pp -_- i didnt even wanna show up at work the next day. Terrible.

Good news is that luckily they didnt get to see "round 2" in the car +_+
But still, besides all the embarrassing moments, i was glad i let everything out, hurtful things i have been bottling up for awhile. I didnt rmb how we started. But it was worth the night.
But i felt so so bad for confusing the crap out of my friends:/

k no more till next term -_-