He asked me how long it usually takes me to move on. He said he still somehow has feeling for the girl he dated years ago. I think its a good thing that we still remember the feeling we once had with someone. Afterall, there were good memories. Idk.. I told him for me moving on doesnt always mean that you dont feel that way anymore. It simply means that you refuse to let hurtful memories in the past stop you from living the present. Maybe the feeling fades, or maybe it still hurts, maybe it'll hurt for awhile, but life goes on. Maybe after a period of time keeping myself busy with life, i pause and look back to realize that even though the person i need was no longer there, my life goes on. And in that short moment, i feel at peace again. Idk if i give up easily or im just quick to accept the situation, the kind of situation that, no matter what i do, will never change.
He thought the same way.
Being home alone sometimes reminds me that its been awhile since she left.
I look around the quiet house and it just hit me :"oh right..she s not here anymore."
I always feel like she s still around, even though i just cant really see her. it feels strange n empty everytime. Its like she was just here yesterday, like after 4 years she s still gone on her long term vacation.
For a long time, i went to bed thinking she would be home again soon, and that i would hear her footstep when i woke up the day after.
