I learn that more often you forgive people simply because you still very much want them in your life.
I also learn that, unfortunately, certain things will happen again and again to you until you realize the lesson you’re supposed to receive is already delivered. You have already learnt what you needed to learn. There is nothing else but to accept that certain things are only meant to teach you, they are not meant for you.
I learn that “we always hurt the ones we love” is not an acceptable reason.
I learn that you should not loose yourself in the process of loving someone so much.
I learn that respect is the ultimate value someone can give to another one.
There is this saying:” In the end, only 3 things matter: how much you loved, how gently you lived, and how gracefully you let go of things not meant for you.”
I have loved someone very much.
I have lived gently.
Now I will learn how to gracefully let go of things not meant for me.
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Today marks 10 years since I came to the States. When I first set foot on this land, a 16 y/o wearing her heart on her sleeves, I did not imagine this could be the life I would have. I did not imagine that exactly 10 years later, a 26 y/o me, a bit more flawed, a bit wiser, a bit more wounded, a bit more empathetic, laying in bed with an aching yet content heart writing this diary. I will always be grateful for everything and everyone that crosses my path. I grew. I lived my truth. I lived kindly. I did not allow life to make me bitter.
I am alright :)
