they either make me their girlfriend, or they leave. i know there's always two sides of a story. i dont know what logic they use on their side, but for me i feel like im being used, or my friendship is being used, or is there even a friendship between us in the first place?
i enjoy solitude. i find simple joys in the silence. in the end people who promised to be there, were not. in the end everyone leaves. in the end i'm on my own. i rather be alone than share my life with people whom i know would leave once they couldn't get what they wanted from me.
im not playing hard to get. im just trying to protect myself from feeling disappointed over and over and over again. i dont expect anyone to understand that either. im so used to it.