DAY 2 - Where youd like to be in 10 years

As in location, somewhere bright, warm, green, dry, some rainy days, snows in winter, chilly in spring, somewhere i can see the sky, less noise, quiet .. Etc..
I ve always want to travel to korea and japan, or pretty much everywhere, all the states, Europe, italy, spain, france, denmark-the happiest place in the world, dubai-where locates the tallest building in the world, ... I would love to stay in korea and japan for awhile, just trying to adapt to the life there and explore.
Lastly i want to come back to vietnam too. My bestfriend and i still need to visit mimosa hill where we once were, yelling at the of our lungs lying next to each other and taking all the burdens in the world off our shoulders. Yeah we need to go back one more time. Its been almost 10 years.

10 years sound very .. enormous..

As in position, i wanna be where my parents, brother and family are, my grandparents, my uncles and aunts, and where my close friends are. But it seems to be an unclear future.

I want to have a job i enjoy doing. If i can learn lots of money it ll be great. I want to take my parents to travel around. Get my dad a great camera, a boat and a badminton court (lol the court is a bit too much). Go hiking with my mom and we ll be sitting on the top of the mountain looking at a beautiful sight in warm sunlight. I wanna take my mom to korea and japan with me too. She can try fishcakes on the street. I wanna go to Taiwan or Thailand to see sky lantern festival with her.
...
I just really hope i can sit my parents down one day and tell them i can now take full care of them so they can rest. I just hope they re still around and healthy when im able to do so.

I also want at least 2 dogs. And a big house.

Lasty i want my own happy family :)
The other day i told my friend that i wanted 2 dogs for wedding presents from the guy and she said im easy. Lol maybe. I ve never really looked into wedding routines and stuffs so i dont know specifically what the bride or the bride family wants for the wedding. i ve never felt like i need properties from people, not even my own parents. Before i get married i wanna make sure im rich haha. House, vacations, furnitures, housewares, i can afford them on my own. There r things i cant do by myself. there will be time when i need a shoulder, someone who isnt going to give up, someone s willing to give me their time.. 50 years?.. Is 50 years too much for ask for?.. I just think time is the most uncertain thing in the world. Its sth we prove as we walk down the road, not sth to promise.. Some people say love is the most uncertain thing. I dont agree. I dont think you can unlove someone. Lost love is still love, in another form. I dont know what love really is, but i know lots of things that look like love, but they arent. I think we live in a culture where we dont love each other, but we re afraid to be alone, or we re afraid to see them with someone else. So we call it love and stick with each other. Of course that doesnt mean for all, but yeah..

Im off topic again.

I think people underestimate the power they have to make themselves happy. There r boundaries theyre afraid to cross and routines theyre afraid to be left out of, because of the age or self image or whatever.
In 10 years i wanna see myself happy :)

30 DAY CHALLENGE

Day 01 - Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.
Day 02 - Where you’d like to be in 10 years.
Day 03 - Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 04 - Your views on religion.
Day 05 - A time you thought about ending your own life.
Day 06 - Write 30 interesting facts about yourself.
Day 07 - Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.
Day 08 - A moment you felt the most satisfied with your life.
Day 09 - How you hope your future will be like.
Day 10 - Discuss your first love and first kiss.
Day 11 - Put your ipod on shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up.
Day 12 - Bullet your whole day.
Day 13 - Somewhere you’d like to move or visit.
Day 14 - Your earliest memory.
Day 15 - Your favourite tumblrs.
Day 16 - Your views on mainstream music.
Day 17 - Your highs and lows of this past year.
Day 18 - Your beliefs.
Day 19 - Disrespecting your parents.
Day 20 - How important you think education is.
Day 21 - One of your favorite shows.
Day 22 - How have you changed in the past 2 years?
Day 23 - Give pictures of 5 guys who are famous who you find attractive.
Day 24 - Your favorite movie and what it’s about.
Day 25 - Someone who fascinates you and why.
Day 26 - What kind of person attracts you.
Day 27 - A problem that you have had.
Day 28 - Something that you miss.
Day 29 - Goals for the next 30 days.
Day 30 - Your highs and lows of this month.

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Day 1 -

I have no mood today so i ll keep it short.
Single and failing to mingle.
Muahaha.
Ive been single most of my life so im very comfortable being single. I admit there r times when im surrounded by couples and i feel a bit awkward. Or when my pillow pet is in the washing machine and i need someone to cuddle with..
Now im all busy with school and personal life so it kinda distracts me from the thought of everyone is in a relationship but me. I think the issue with me is that im not easily attracted to people. like i dont like people, not in that way. I look at people like im looking as seashells. Im like the passive type, i just let time do its job of revealing what s inside the shell little by little.
I once liked a guy, sth about him reminded me of my dad. I guess that was why I always felt familiar with him. But i was silly. I learnt so much from it.
At times i feel like i see lots of things that others miss, or maybe they dont want to accept it. Some other time i feel like i see nothing at all. I think it would be great if you can meet someone who has the same mind as yours, same sorts of thoughts, ..
Im off topic, but anyways, single life is good.

"We do not see things as they are, we see things as we are." -

60 seconds [acoustic version] - Sunggyu.

"사랑에 빠지는 데 걸린 시간 60초, 그리고 이별하는 데 걸린 시간 60초" -
"60 seconds is all it takes to fall in love, and 60 seconds is all it takes to say goodbye." -

Finally a full sunggyu's version. im not tired of this song yet :<<<< excuse me while im back in my corner sobbing over his perfection. T_____T

Its hard enough to learn to love myself.
I dont hate myself.. or at least not too often,
I dont love myself either.

I havent writen for a few days. I wanted to write sth but everytime i found myself staring at the blank page putting feelings into words and forcing words to come out.
Its getting really cold lately. I just barely recovered from a cold. And bc of the cold last week i left really lifeless, but my friends were really nice they took care of me and comforted me. I appreciated very much. But they fed me too much -_- since im almost alright now i may start working out again this week. its just too cold.
These last few days i had lots of fun. Finally had some spare time to dine out and catch up with friends. (Im lying i have tons of craps to do i just pretent i had time). i also caught up with TA and ceci. Bought some new clothes. Cleaned my room a bit etc..
Everyone is planning for their grad and it scares me. Im way behind... I switched to volunteer at pharmacy dept and it made me realize how much i dont want to remember all the med brand names... I dont even know what do to now. I guess i ll figure it out somehow..
"If you dont know where youre going, any road will take you there." -
A friend of mine was drunk the other day and she talked to me bout our friendship and i felt a lil bit awkward but insas glad she could let it out of her head. Even though i dont have much faith or expectation in friendship anymore, i do feel thankful and appreciate that she still wanna be my friend. I dont know how long it ll last this time but i ll just enjoy it while it lasts and i wont have any regret later. I dont really express my feels to people. I hope they can see it through what i do for them.
... Its just that im often the person everyone replaces once they find sth better... So yeah .. Idk.
While i was stocking meds on the shelf, i realized my life is too short not to buy things i love and travel to new places. So i have a full shopping cart im bout to order, and im planning to go to klamath fall after finals. I usually like travelling by myself. Im not sure why. Maybe bc i like to think and relax in my own world. When i travel with other people i have my guard up so i cant really let my thoughts get lost in space. It doesnt mean i dont trust my friends or anything. I just have a very distinct world of my own. But traveling w friends are great too cuz you can share the moments w others pp.
My friend is getting a kitten tomorrow. Im so excited. Idk how she s gonna name it but when im alone with the kid imma call it Haru. Means spring. Haru ah~ :D eonni is very excited to meet you! Eonni s gonna call you Haru and its a secret okie?
I was also thinking of Domo, Mochi, Maru, Miru, ...Myunggie haha, but no, andwae == no Myunggie, ... Sunny- son of Sun hahaha, mochi is really cute tho. My counselor has a dog named cookie. My dog was Mino.

Its 3am and i cant sleep...

Uri Myungsoo's drama's OST by Infinite :D this OST makes me so happy MUAHAHAHA the lyric is so relevant lol!! not sure if theyre singing about a guy's crush on his girl, or it sounds much more like a fangirls' crush song lol
jk its not. but it's cute anyway :D

"They say to stop looking because it's not gonna happen anyway
They say that it's a waste of time in my short life
They call me a fool but who cares?
When I look at you, the world stops
When you smile, my heart stops
I can't say anything but my heart grows larger
Everyone tells me to forget you

They say it's all a fantasy,
that it's a lingering attachment,
that it's an obsession
No one knows you
But I'm like this,
I'm like this because it's you,
I'm like this again
Even if everyone says no, I only have you."

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definitely a fan girl song hahaha