Im feeling low these days. There s really no specific reason.. or is there.. I tried to occupy myself with things, but at the end of the day i still feel a little empty.
I made up reasons to blame my mood on. At first i said its bc most of my girl friends are all busy brainstorming about presents for their bf and the bfs' families. Secret santa and white elephants and stuffs, while I dont really have to buy any present. This is probably the first xmas i dont even bother to think of buying presents. My own fam doesnt even mind. Im just so numb to every xmas activities this years. And my best friend s been whining about not having a bf to share xmas with every time we talk. But honestly i couldnt hang on to that reason for too long cause im actually glad i dont have to go thru all that troubles while my finance is bad atm.
So i told myself im feeling low bc i ve been lazy to work out and my fat is showing. Its kind of true.. I seriously think i have an eating disorder psychologically... I ll go in details some other times..
There were many more things in my poor head awhile ago but i now lost my train of thoughts bc my tummy is growling.
Goodnight.