Like right now, my headache is killing me...
Jk.
I've never felt like ending my own life. I think i was close, but not to that point yet. I think i wasnt born to end my life half way. I rather finish what i start. There were multiple times i forgot how to feel, or times i felt like a dead person living.. And everything was dead black. But there s more to life than just the pain, isnt it?... No matter how original my life is, im meant to make sth out of it.. right...?
And to imagine someone ending their own life is beyond my imagination. Some say pp die not bc theyre sad but bc they need to stop the pain somehow. Some say pp die bc they want to feel again. I would like to hear what they really think, i want to listen for a long long time, even though im not sure that would help me understand anything.
The mind can be such a terrible place.
“In a sense, I’m the one who ruined me: I did it myself.”
— Haruki Murakami, 1Q84
