"Đường đi có ai biết đâu trước những gì sẽ qua...
Phải giấu đi mất hay giữ lại những yêu thương?" -
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Thursday, July 26, 2012
Hwaiting~~!
I have exactly 1 month till the wedding! Need to strictly stick to my diet and work out routine like last time :D ! I can do it!! Krystal Hwaiting~!!!!!! *insert background music* (￣▽￣)
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why do i love food so much...
Food-nim... annyeong T^T byebye T^T
.......
On the other hand, i think im having heat stroke =="
I feel like a steamed seal lying on a rock ... ==•
urg my digestion is bad too. Aigoo summer.
........
why do i love food so much...
Food-nim... annyeong T^T byebye T^T
.......
On the other hand, i think im having heat stroke =="
I feel like a steamed seal lying on a rock ... ==•
urg my digestion is bad too. Aigoo summer.
Tuesday, July 24, 2012
Another friend of mine is leaving for good tomorrow. We're not close anymore and we dont really talk that much. But why does farewell always make me feel so sad?...
so Farewell But Not Goodbye :)
I met her during my freshman year. damn, it's been 3 years...
I think Im a bit too sensitive about the "time concept"... and "goodbyes" and "farewell" slap that reality to my face, that time never stops ticking and there are moments that are never the same as they once were.
so Farewell But Not Goodbye :)
Monday, July 23, 2012
Saturday, July 21, 2012
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| The Happiest picture. |
I have a soft spot for old lonely-looking people. I always wonder where they come from, why are they here doing whatever theyre doing, what are they thinking... then i wonder what their life was like, what did they do for a living, what did they want to grow up into when they were little, what did they do when they were at my age, who was in their life... then... if they have children, where are their children that they're here by themselves being alone in the crowd, does anyone else see them...?
In a few minutes, hundreds of questions passed through my mind. Then i felt ashamed quickly after i realized i was feeling sorry for them. I dont know... what am I to feel sorry for people?... was it bc i was sitting their nicely dressed and that im young and healthier? those things will go away one day anyway... then how great am i that i can look at someone and assume that they're miserable... time is such a concept created by people...
I wasnt sure if that was the saddest or happiest thing i've ever seen. Their appearances looked so sad, but they looked so carefree and happy. They walked slow, looked and pointed at the sand castles and mumbled to each other in broken words. Im sure they didnt even need words... The old woman held the old man's arm to help him walk when he was too slow. They walked around once or twice in the crowd, not giving a care about the world. They smiled at the things they see and smiled at each other. And when I saw those dry and deep wrinkles tracing down their smiles, I thought to myself: "... such a pretty thing to see"... Honestly, my eyes got wet for awhile.... if that's not so weird ==".... I guess I would look happy too if I ever carry that appearance yet still have a loyal friend around. I wonder what it's like to have a companion like that to walk with for a long journey...
*lost in thoughts*....
anyway, those were just thoughts happening in my head... maybe they were just merely.. two people... right, just two people at a sand festival.
Thursday, July 19, 2012
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
"Look for the dream that keeps coming back, it is your destiny." -
Stand up for what you believe in, even if it means standing alone.
Sunday, July 15, 2012
I need to stick to an exercise routine ==
Why am i craving for crepes so much why ==
Banh trang too... Pudding too...
What kind of diet is this..
Sweets-craving diet
I hate chu y u so pretty ㅠㅠㅠ
myungsoo go away ...
Im so greedy and jealous sometimes :| bad krystal bad!
krystal dont be like this :< dont be selfish and petty :<
live humbly and kindly :<
Aigoo i need to leave to the mountain and meditate ==
krystal ninja
Bashaaa
i feel like ordering circle lens again. Those r prettyyy.
I kinda wanna do 30 day no make up challenge too. Daebak~~ i can wash my face and rub my eyes any time :D ~~
however... =))))
hate chu cat, u round face cute lil thing
Go away ㅠㅠ
Its so hot in my room ==
I get weird when its too hot URGG.
Cant stand the heat (＞人＜;)
Am i ever not weird ㅠㅠ
I bought a plain light-yellow shirt from urban the order day for $30. I must have been out of my mind (￣▽￣)
the reason is that it looks exactly like myungsoo shirt in their 120629 Performance...
（ーー；）k imma go return it... This is not right... （ーー；）
myungsoonami =="
jinjja shireo >< myungsooshi bballi ga >< take your cat too ><
Talking of infinite, my CD album hasnt arrived yet argg
Neither is my baybi :< baybi when r you coming home :<
Bogoshippeo (T ^ T)
i need to run again. Summer is revealing my fat (￣▽￣)
SSERIOUSLY ITS LIKE A SAUNA IN HERE (＞人＜;)
...i want a collection of colorful pants like that...
In The Summer~~~ Hobaby xD Namu Dino Yeollie Sungjonggie Grandpa Derpsoo~~
Why am i craving for crepes so much why ==
Banh trang too... Pudding too...
What kind of diet is this..
Sweets-craving diet
I hate chu y u so pretty ㅠㅠㅠ
myungsoo go away ...
Im so greedy and jealous sometimes :| bad krystal bad!
krystal dont be like this :< dont be selfish and petty :<
live humbly and kindly :<
Aigoo i need to leave to the mountain and meditate ==
krystal ninja
Bashaaa
i feel like ordering circle lens again. Those r prettyyy.
I kinda wanna do 30 day no make up challenge too. Daebak~~ i can wash my face and rub my eyes any time :D ~~
however... =))))
hate chu cat, u round face cute lil thing
Go away ㅠㅠ
Its so hot in my room ==
I get weird when its too hot URGG.
Cant stand the heat (＞人＜;)
Am i ever not weird ㅠㅠ
I bought a plain light-yellow shirt from urban the order day for $30. I must have been out of my mind (￣▽￣)
the reason is that it looks exactly like myungsoo shirt in their 120629 Performance...
（ーー；）k imma go return it... This is not right... （ーー；）
myungsoonami =="
jinjja shireo >< myungsooshi bballi ga >< take your cat too ><
Talking of infinite, my CD album hasnt arrived yet argg
Neither is my baybi :< baybi when r you coming home :<
Bogoshippeo (T ^ T)
i need to run again. Summer is revealing my fat (￣▽￣)
SSERIOUSLY ITS LIKE A SAUNA IN HERE (＞人＜;)
...i want a collection of colorful pants like that...
In The Summer~~~ Hobaby xD Namu Dino Yeollie Sungjonggie Grandpa Derpsoo~~
Saturday, July 14, 2012
I dont know whats going on with me recently.
I stay up so late. I cant sleep well at night and wake up every morning with a heavy rock on my chest.
I feel insecured most of the time.
My faith is shaking.
Im fed up with myself.
...
that feeling when you miss a step on a ladder and lose balance, in a milisecond you think youre about to fall but youre actually not sure if youre gonna fall... That feeling, why do i feel like that every second...
I think i really need to shut off and find my balance again.
I stay up so late. I cant sleep well at night and wake up every morning with a heavy rock on my chest.
I feel insecured most of the time.
My faith is shaking.
Im fed up with myself.
...
that feeling when you miss a step on a ladder and lose balance, in a milisecond you think youre about to fall but youre actually not sure if youre gonna fall... That feeling, why do i feel like that every second...
I think i really need to shut off and find my balance again.
Friday, July 6, 2012
"Feelings that come back, are feelings that never went away."-
He once asked me how some ex-couples could completely cut off connection, turn off the phone and avoid each other. He said it was a bit unfair if one of them still wanted to keep the friendship or at least keep in touch, but the other chose to act like strangers or nothing ever happened before. I said I dont know. Maybe sometimes when you know there is no possible way to close your heart with someone atm, you'll force to close your eyes and ears, so that you wont see and you wont hear.
"But you didn't do that though... You didn't run away. You stayed." - he said.
I stayed because everyone is different and everyone has different way to deal with things. In return, it took every-single-cell of me to brace up and endure it. I'm the type of person that would drive the next day even when I was almost killed in a car accident yesterday, and that I would swim the next day even when i was almost drown yesterday. What I fear the most is that if I stayed away from the water for awhile, I would never dare to return to it. If I rested at home for awhile, I would never dare to get in the car again.
But eventually when a better time came, I ran away without anyone noticing. I ran for my life. I closed my eyes and I closed my ears, and patiently I waited to close that gap in the past.
The talk reminded me of sth I had a random thought of before, when I was lying on a bench at my school park late at night. When you fall in love with someone, you give away a piece of your heart and never take it back, even if you walk a separate way later on. Then there may be times when you guys come across each other again, and in a millisecond you will recognize that person as all he ever was to you, all the time passing by, all memories. Most people dont realize or believe that, because it's so quick and blurry. Some does, because the human's brain and heart are designed that way.
Because in a milisecond, you heart recognizes that tiny lost piece that you gave away.
"But you didn't do that though... You didn't run away. You stayed." - he said.
I stayed because everyone is different and everyone has different way to deal with things. In return, it took every-single-cell of me to brace up and endure it. I'm the type of person that would drive the next day even when I was almost killed in a car accident yesterday, and that I would swim the next day even when i was almost drown yesterday. What I fear the most is that if I stayed away from the water for awhile, I would never dare to return to it. If I rested at home for awhile, I would never dare to get in the car again.
But eventually when a better time came, I ran away without anyone noticing. I ran for my life. I closed my eyes and I closed my ears, and patiently I waited to close that gap in the past.
The talk reminded me of sth I had a random thought of before, when I was lying on a bench at my school park late at night. When you fall in love with someone, you give away a piece of your heart and never take it back, even if you walk a separate way later on. Then there may be times when you guys come across each other again, and in a millisecond you will recognize that person as all he ever was to you, all the time passing by, all memories. Most people dont realize or believe that, because it's so quick and blurry. Some does, because the human's brain and heart are designed that way.
Because in a milisecond, you heart recognizes that tiny lost piece that you gave away.
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Thursday, July 5, 2012
Wednesday, July 4, 2012
rambling~
sometimes i write stuffs that i have no idea why write it the day after. i wonder if it was me or pms that wrote the blog last night... my face is breaking out >_<
went around 23rd w a friend today to get some air :) it was nice.
i saw this person on the street car and she was as gorgeous as always. reminded me of how low self-esteem she made me feel awhile back. and then she reminded me of someone else.
flashback flashback flashback
sigh*
anyway, the sun was out. i love sunlights on a chilly day :)
tried matcha boba at this new place,
went to a pretty park with a water fountain,
there were 2 japanese baby boys swimming and playing in the water. they were adorable n_______n
saw clouds scattered above the glittering river like tiny cotton balls<3
went home to raw salmon on the table xD
exo on my dash~~~ luhan~ chanyeol~ i cant' =_=...
myungsoo on my dash~~~ gotta love myungsoo's side profile it's just perfect. anio there isnt a thing about him that isnt perfect! myungsoo's imperfection is that he's perfect! jk! but seriously! =_= genetics is a troll!
why is it 12 :30 already T_T i still wanna stay up T_T
probably gonna see some firework tmr w the bio/physic crew~~ *throw hearts* xD
infinite ranking king's new ep is tmr i cantttt wait to see their new dorm n______n God blesses subbers!
that's it for now.. gonna go rewatch hunger games now ^^ goodnight world~~~
went around 23rd w a friend today to get some air :) it was nice.
i saw this person on the street car and she was as gorgeous as always. reminded me of how low self-esteem she made me feel awhile back. and then she reminded me of someone else.
flashback flashback flashback
sigh*
anyway, the sun was out. i love sunlights on a chilly day :)
tried matcha boba at this new place,
went to a pretty park with a water fountain,
there were 2 japanese baby boys swimming and playing in the water. they were adorable n_______n
saw clouds scattered above the glittering river like tiny cotton balls<3
went home to raw salmon on the table xD
exo on my dash~~~ luhan~ chanyeol~ i cant' =_=...
myungsoo on my dash~~~ gotta love myungsoo's side profile it's just perfect. anio there isnt a thing about him that isnt perfect! myungsoo's imperfection is that he's perfect! jk! but seriously! =_= genetics is a troll!
why is it 12 :30 already T_T i still wanna stay up T_T
probably gonna see some firework tmr w the bio/physic crew~~ *throw hearts* xD
infinite ranking king's new ep is tmr i cantttt wait to see their new dorm n______n God blesses subbers!
that's it for now.. gonna go rewatch hunger games now ^^ goodnight world~~~
Tuesday, July 3, 2012
out of sight, out of mind.
i dont feel very well tonight...
i always try to believe that everything happens for a reason and to change me in a better way. I didnt see this coming at first, but i took the chance to see where it would lead me to. i went with the flow. but recently i've been wondering if these changes are good or bad or both...
im scared of the uncertainty.
and what scares me the most
im used to be on my own most of the time and i rarely feel lonely. but these few days i do.
i know it's something that can't be avoided but i still dont like seeing pp whom im close with come and go
im easily upset.
sometimes, i admit, im a bit scared that they ll leave when they find sth more actracting.
i never try to be close with anyone.
it's not a positive thing to do i guess.. but at least im safe. and that's not a positive excuse either
it's just that
i've seen how bad it could get, and i tried so hard to make it through, i never wanna revoke that shadow inside my heart again.
i missed that feeling when someone patted my head saying 'i ll take care of that for you' 'dont be scared, im here' ...'youre safe' 'i ll keep you safe'.
i just feel like crawling back to my shell to find my balance again.
i always try to believe that everything happens for a reason and to change me in a better way. I didnt see this coming at first, but i took the chance to see where it would lead me to. i went with the flow. but recently i've been wondering if these changes are good or bad or both...
im scared of the uncertainty.
and what scares me the most
im used to be on my own most of the time and i rarely feel lonely. but these few days i do.
i know it's something that can't be avoided but i still dont like seeing pp whom im close with come and go
im easily upset.
sometimes, i admit, im a bit scared that they ll leave when they find sth more actracting.
i never try to be close with anyone.
it's not a positive thing to do i guess.. but at least im safe. and that's not a positive excuse either
it's just that
i've seen how bad it could get, and i tried so hard to make it through, i never wanna revoke that shadow inside my heart again.
i missed that feeling when someone patted my head saying 'i ll take care of that for you' 'dont be scared, im here' ...'youre safe' 'i ll keep you safe'.
i just feel like crawling back to my shell to find my balance again.