I dont know whats going on with me recently.
I stay up so late. I cant sleep well at night and wake up every morning with a heavy rock on my chest.
I feel insecured most of the time.
My faith is shaking.
Im fed up with myself.
...
that feeling when you miss a step on a ladder and lose balance, in a milisecond you think youre about to fall but youre actually not sure if youre gonna fall... That feeling, why do i feel like that every second...

I think i really need to shut off and find my balance again.