it's when i have a scary dream about it.
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i hate dreaming. it makes me feel like my mind is never at rest. sometimes im scared of my own mind...
i took a nap earlier and dreamed of going to IKEA. ive been remodeling my room recently so i guess that was why IKEA came up. while at IKEA, i visited my forever favorite pudding on rice store, which is indeed located near PSU in real life. i ve also been craving for pudding recently. turned out that the whole store was then switched into an ice cream store. i saw colorful ice cream everywhere and they looked so so pretty. but i was so disappointed that all my pudding were gone. so i decided to tried all the ice cream looking for my favorite cinamon pudding flavor. but i couldnt find it... bc they were all ice cream :| ...
i walked out of IKEA into an open empty parking lot. the sun was going down. the sky cast a gloomy color on the parking lot. i have a small fear of open empty space and dark places. so i slowly walked around sobbing in lost and in disappointment of no pudding.
then i woke up...
such a failed dream...
but it was scary T_T
all the lameness aside, my parents and i took my brother to OSU this morning. i couldnt help but showed a little jealousy that he can move on but i can't. but at least my mom was being understanding.
these few days im spending most of my time remodeling the room. we bought new furniture and i need to get rid of the stuffs i never touch for years, which take like 70% of my properties :|
anyway there r still lots to be done. im a lil frustrated with my skin condition right now that i have to avoid going out as much as possible. being home isnt boring but i feel kinda lonely having no one to talk to. my bf is back in school and she's not much of a texting person. my other friends have their own fun to enjoy and forget my existence. haha just kidding. but seriously :| *sadly wait for some attention :<*
im a very bipolar person i admit. when no one talks to me, i complain. when they talk to me, im like "so you rmb me now? go away" *ignore text* *derp face*. when i know its no prob to text pp first, i end up not texting anyone.. its all bc im lazy... then i complain bout having no one to talks to.
im just a moody spoiled brat.
good news is that this only happens for at most 24 hours.. per month...? lets just say i go through some low battery periods once in a while.
